‘So get on with it,’ said Nenanda, his words very nearly a snarl.
Smiling, Clip faced the Cut once more. ‘Do not speak, any of you. I must work hard at this.’
Nimander rubbed at his face. He felt numb, haunted by exhaustion. He moved off to sit on a boulder. Just up from the steep shoreline, thick moss blunted every-thing, the stumps of rotted trees, the upended roots, the tumbled black stones. The night air clung to him, cold and damp, reaching in to his bones, closing tight about his heart. He listened to the soft lap of the water, the suck and gurgle among the rocks. The smell was rich with decay, the mists sweet with brine.
He could feel the cold of the boulder seeping through, and his hands ached.
Clip spun his chain, whirled the two rings, one gold, one silver, and round and round they went. Apart from that he stood motionless, his back to them all.
Skintick settled down beside Nimander. Their eyes met and Skintick shrugged a silent question, to which Nimander replied with a faint shake of his head.
He’d thought he’d have a few more days. To decide things. The when. The how. The options if they should fail. Tactics. Fall-back plans. So much to think about, but he could speak to no one, could not even hint of what he thought must be done. Clip had stayed too close to them on this descent, as if suspicious, as if deliberately forcing Nimander to say nothing.
There was so much he needed to tell them, and so much that he needed to hear. Discussions, arguments, the weighing of risks and contingencies and coordination. All the things demanded of one who would lead; but his inability to give voice to his intentions, to deliver orders at the end of a long debate, had made him next to useless.
By his presence alone, Clip had stopped Nimander in his tracks.
In this game of move and countermove, Clip had outwitted him, and that galled. The moment the charade was shattered, there would be chaos, and in that scene Clip held the advantage. He had only himself to worry about, alter all,
No, Nimander had no choice but to act alone, to trust in the others to follow.
He knew they were watching him, his every move, studying his face for any telltale expression, for every silent message, and this meant he had to hold himself in check. He had to guard himself against revealing anything, lest one of them misunderstand and so make a fatal mistake, and all of this was wearing him down.
Something lifted noisily from the black water. A span of darkness, vertical, its upper edges dripping, fast dissolving.
‘Follow me,’Clip gasped.’Quickly!’
Nimander rose and tugged Skintick back-‘Everyone, stay behind me’-and, seeing Clip lunge forward and vanish within the Gate, he hurried forward.
But Nenanda reached the portal before him, rushing in even as he drew his sword.
Cursing under his breath, Nimander darted after him.
The Gate was collapsing. Someone shrieked in his wake.
Nimander staggered on slippery, uneven bedrock, half blinded by streaks of lu-minescence that scattered like cut webs. He heard a gasping sound, almost at his feet, and a moment later stumbled against something that groaned.
Nimander reached down, felt a body lying prone. Felt something hot and welling under one palm-the slit of a wound, the leaking of blood. ‘Nenanda?’
Another gasp, and then, ‘I’m sorry, Nimander-I saw-I saw him reaching for his dagger, even as he stepped through-I saw-he knew, he knew you were following, you see-he-’
From somewhere ahead there came a hollow laugh. ‘Do you imagine me an id-iot, Nimander? Too bad it wasn’t you. It should have been you. But then, this way it’s just one more death for you to carry along.’
Nimander stared but could see nothing. ‘You still need us!’
‘Maybe, but it’s too risky to have you so close. When I see a viper, I don’t invite it into my belt-pouch. So, wander lost in here… for ever, Nimander. It won’t feel very different from your life before this, I expect.’
‘The god within you,’ Nimander said, ’is a fool. My Lord will cut it down and you with it, Clip. You don’t know him. You don’t know a damned thing!’
Another laugh, this one much farther away.
Nimander wiped the tears from his cheeks with his free forearm. Beneath his palm, the pulse of blood from the wound had slowed.
Too many failures. Too many defeats.
A soul carries a vessel of courage. It cannot be refilled. Every thing that takes from it leaves less behind.
What do I have left?
Whatever it was, the time had come to drink deep, to use it all. One last time. Nimander straightened.
‘Desra? Skintick? Anyone?’